Thursday, April 30, 2009

Left the House


We made it out of the house today. Went to stroller strides then let Bubba run around the playground like the wildman that he is.

So this is what came up... " So you ARE pregnant!" " I was never sure if you were pregnant or not" " I havent seen you for a week, and now I can definitly see a bump ".

All these things being thrown at me at the time I just smiled and said "yep". As Im cleaning my bedroom today and thinking to myself it hits me . What do I look like a blimp now? How much of a difference can there be? Not that I havent felt the difference in the past week. I can barely walk up the stairs without contractions.

Thinking of everyones comments makes me laugh though. They probaly have thought to themselves the last few months Ive known them that I was chubby around the middle with the previous weight I hadnt lost from having Mark. That was probaly the biggest reason they didnt think I was pregnant , because Bubba is so young. He is only 13 months and there will be only 15 months inbetween the kids. WOW.

So many times last week I looked in the mirror and would turn to Mark ( husband ) and say " Baby , do you notice me getting bigger? I feel so much bigger." His reply is always the same " You look the same as you did last week". Why cant we ever get an honest opinion out of them ? I know why. Its because they are scared. Well at least Im sure that my husband is scared giving me the wrong answer.

Today is only a little over half way done , and Im pooped. Ive been cleaning and doing laundry since before and after our outing and Im just done. I have a book club meeting tonight , that I have been looking forward to for a month . Now that the day is here though , I dont want to leave the house. Sorry ladies , I know I suck but I dont think Id stay awake . Ive been getting into bed at 8 pm and still dont get enough sleep.

What do I have left to look forward to today ? Humm. Mark getting home. I was thinking of making a dip for book club but since Im not going maybe I could sit here and eat it all . I really could eat it all to myself. In order for me to make that dip means I have to leave the house ... which I really dont want to do.

For the rest of the day I think I might stay in my room. I brought in a little recliner and Im happily am sitting here under the window typing away . I also have a book to finish.

As you can see I am rambling on , but I decided that this is my only form of a journal so why not just really put down what I am thinking.

Ok , now all I can think about is the dip , that MUST be done tonight.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Hermit Time


There are times in my life that I fall into "hermit time". It happens after really pushing myself to do to much in a short time , I get burnt out. Not that Im purposely staying indoors now . Bubba and I have stayed home all week , not that I really wanted to but I feel as though Im a hermit.

Along with going into my 7th month of pregnancy , I have not been feeling well and there is a little sickness going through our playgroup , that I admit Im really scared of Mark getting sick. Not that he couldnt handle it , its me. I just barely have the energy lately to get anything done.

Since staying in the pass couple days I have read a couple books and nearly have gone completely crazy. My craziness is an outcome of Marks craziness. That poor boy NEEDS to get out of the house or he ends up running back and forth or rolling around the living room. So for the past couple days I have been letting him run around like a wild man in the backyard. We bought a hose today just so I could sit there and spray him with it , he loves it.

I didnt realize how long Ive been indoors untill today when I noticed that there was a playgroup I had wanted Mark to attend . They went to the Pacific Grove Natural History museum... I thought it was next week. Then I get a reminder for a book club meeting , which again I thought was next week . THEN I realize that it is the end of the flippin month!! Where did it all go?

I feel as though Im an old woman when things like this happen! Time has been going by so fast , Im going into my last trimester and there are times that I feel Im not prepared .... but then I think to myself what am I really not prepared for?

Once you become a mother I think that there is something chemically released into your brain that makes your forget more .... and.... well there are to many side effects to state but I am sure all you mothers know what I am talking about.

Oh gosh , I really wish I could make this more of a journal entry and put down what we have done , but I really cant remember. We havent done ANYTHING this week. Mark and I did walk to the park this evening to let Bubba blow off some steam , he was down to throwing books at us.

Well off to a night full of spider solitaire till Im to exhausted to see the numbers.

By the way Im falling in love with the cartoons , its so funny to look through them all. So take time and look up some cartoons and have a laugh. I dont know if you find them as funny as I do , they may not be funny at all , but by 9 pm and Im exhausted everything is funny.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Pointless Post of a Weekend


This weekend was something else , it wasnt even a weekend! It was like it didnt even happen! On Saturday I just remember ( well now I dont know if I do remember) waking up , then looking at my watch and it already 6 pm! Sunday came around and waking up , of course I thought I had plenty of time to get ready for church then we were rushed. Time stood still come the second hour of church . It probaly stopped because I wore a pair a heels I hadnt wore yet , which I find out are the most terrible things to put on your feet. I felt ( and still feel ) 9 months pregnant , but the hardest part about that hour was that I had baby duty . We ended up with another dad in the gym watching these little ones walking around. Then of course Bubba has to be obessed with the ladder that was left there. Now that I come to think of it I had Baby Mark with me in R.S as well. At least we were able to box him in between chairs and a sister I sat down next to happened to have a little backpack full of racecars.

After church who knows what happens , Mark and Mark went for a run and I think I sat there and zoned out ..... cleaned then went to bed.

Such an exciting life I lead! Just trying to think of what I accomplished this weekend makes me feel useless. When I actually have Mark here to watch the child , I sit down and zone out ...or grab a book. I know Im not the only one .

It is already Tuesday with no plans because Im feeling under the weather , plus there is a bug going through all the children in Marks playgroup. So we are in quarantine.

As Im here rereading this blog Im thinking to myself what happened to Monday ? Sunday night I didnt fall asleep till 330 then woke up 3 times then was up at 6 am , so I truly was a zombie throughout the day . I really cant say what I did yesterday.... all I know is that Bubba and my Husband are alive and were fed, so I must have done something.

Birds of a Feather


Drives me crazy that the book leaves you hanging. The story was complete but I will not find out who Miss Maisie Dobbs went to dinner with on Tuesday night! Of course I have another Maisie Dobbs book upstairs but I think it might be the fifth book. So I dont want to even look at it. Even though you really dont have to read the books in order , they sort of remind me of Nancy Drew books. You can start anywhere in that collection , the author always covers points of Nancy Drews past that will help you understand the story. The same goes for these Maisie Dobbs books.

Great read. Easy mystery novel , even though when she finds certain clues she keeps them to herself , so it leaves you in the air since she doesnt inform you of the missing clue till the end. I picked through this book this weekend. I was trying not to ignore the world and hide in my room with book. Im now sad it is over , this might make me get up and out of the house to get the next book.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

2 Year Anniversary


2 years and I almost forgot about it. I cant even tell you what we did last year. We had Bubba and he was just 2 weeks 2 days old . Im sure I was sleep deprived and one step from being admitted to a coo-coo ward.

Yesterday morning I woke up at 3 am , woke up my husband and said " Baby , Happy Anniversary , I just had to tell you now because I dont think I would remember when we wake up".

Now , when people seem to know that is your anniversary or when they ask you how long you have been married and you say only 2 years ( or anything under 5 years) they say " let me know when you hit 10 years". They make it seem like , "oh thats nothing to be celebrating'. Well you know what I say ? " Whatever" , because I am sure at there 1 year , they were just as excited as we are. Do you know what I am saying? It doesnt really agrivate me , but I just want to say "We all celebrate in different ways" . So please do not be negative about it .

We participated in a Earth Day family fun run at the Naval Post Graduate School , then had lunch at Islands. Nothing big , but it was just enough for us. We were ( like last year) to exhausted to do anything . Though Mark isnt pregnant , he does have to deal with Bubba during the night and get to school. So I know that mentally he is burnt toast.

Its Saturday morning now , and we are walking around like zombies as Bubbba runs around the house like a mad man. If we were alone , Mark and I would sleep, eat , watch a movie. Now with the little one , we are jesters in his court and personal slaves.LOL.

Ahh , how things change in 2 years.

Maisie Dobbs


To celebrate our 2 year anniversary , I spent every free minute I had to read 'Maisie Dobbs'. I had been itching for a mystery and this quenched my thirst , well maybe not really quenching it because I cant wait to read the next book ( which is upstairs next to my bed , waiting for me to rescue it , but my husband will flip).

The book lets say covers a little bit of everything. Meaning that its covers just enough history of the sleuth , just enough of the mystery and just enough of blabbing about the country side of England. There is one thing that drives me nuts about English writers , they like to explain the country side to detail. Ive never been to England so Im not the person to be saying that it is or isnt the most beautiful country side you have ever seen. Though I am watching one of the tourist guide TV shows of England and there are very many beautiful places. As I said though , some authors just drag on with it and dont stick to the story . Jacqueline Winspear ( the author) covers enough of it , if she went any further with it I would have probaly put the book down.

One other thing that was just enough , was the love interest . The book constantly kept you on the curious side ( as a mystery should) of what was happening in Maisie Dobbs love life. There was not a whole love story that sucks you in and keeps you from the main part of the story , but then I didnt think there was a main part. The book was broken up into pieces. It was just wonderful though . I loved the ending , though it didnt make me cry . Which is great because I really dont like to cry.

I fell in love with Maisie Dobbs and the characters that live around her. Before I had started the book I thought they were written in the 50's , but this first book was written in 2003. The setting of the book was right before and after WWI.

I know Im not very good at explaining the book , but its my explanation that is running through my mind , and if you do every decide to read it I dont want to give anything away.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Wild Nights


Today during naptime I finished one of the many books I brought home from the library. It was not a book I had planned on picking up , but it was they only one written by the author of 'The Gravediggers Daughter'. I grabbed it just to see what her writing was like , to see if I could get through her book.

Turns out she is AMAZING. The books is composed of 5 short stories of the last days of famous writers. Edgar Allan Poe , Emily Dickinson, Samuel Clemens ( Mark Twain) , Henry James and Ernest Hemingway. WOW. A couple of them ended very weird. One I just didnt get. Another left me up in the air . Then the last left me to think that all these people were quite depressing.

I ended having to read on a little on every writer so I understood what was happening at the time of these writers lives. It helped me understand them tremendously. Except in the case of Emily Dickinson , I already had known a little bit about her , but her story was set in the future.

I would like to gush over what happened but would love if you took a chance to grab the book and sit down and enjoy some short stories.

'Wild Nights' by Joyce Carol Oates

My Loves.




There are times , I will admit when I what to throw them both off a cliff. Not for being bad or annoying , well for being " boys " . Arent boys "bad" and "annoying" though ? No matter what they do or what trouble they both get into I love them so much. The love is unstoppable , unmoveable , neverending. They are truly the only things that make me so happy. No matter how tired , beaten down , busy , or fuming at them , I cant help just to really think how much happiness comes through me looking at them . Both of their smiles light up my day. Their smiles are the first things I see when I wake up . In the morning Mark will wake up and get ready for work , but wakes me up when he is leaving to give me a kiss. Even though every time I wake up Im scared to death , because I have been woken up out of a dead sleep , but once I see his smile I cant help but fall in love with him all over again. Then ( since Bubba is in bed with me in the morning) when Baby Mark wakes up , he ALWAYS wakes up with a huge smile , which of course I melt and grab ( well try ) him to give a hug.


Ive never been one to post to the world of my love for either of them . Im not one to boast of the greatness of my little family . I feel as though I dont need to. Maybe if you were to see us , you would see the happiness, love and adoration we have for each other.


Even though this might be a boastful blog I just couldnt help saying something about it . As I did the dishes tonight , Mark brought out Bubbas tunnel.Which they both end up rolling around the living room in . Both of them are hysterical laughing , and I only wish I didnt have such a big belly at the moment so we could have all been crammed in there.


They are my monkeys , my boys , my Big and Little men. They are my world.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

My History and Love for Books


Yesterday I came across a one of the young women leaders I had growing up blog. Im a fan of her daughters blog , its addicting. I always seem to come over it every week and a half and have so much to catch up on with her everchanging exciting young life. I say "Young life" as though I am so much older but she is a month older then me. But as I told my husband this afternoon , " I feel as though we are in our 30s, compared to everyone my age that I grew up with ".

Moving on , well I came across the moms blog , and she happens to have a book blog as well. I fell in love with it. Well maybe not fell in love but I did go to the library today just to get books that she has currently read. When I came across her blog I was just so enthralled that there was someone else out there that loves to read ,and get through books in a good amount of time.

Just recently I joined the book club that my local moms group holds. First book club for me and its just one of the coolest things . I just wish we read more books in a month. I read a little on the fast side so Im done with the books in about 2-3 days. So it leaves me waiting for a whole month of what the next book will be. Yes , I could go out and pick out my own books. Id rather do it as a group or have someones ( that I know) opinion about the book. Reason being that I like to know the person is so that I have someone to talk to about it. That reminds me , Ev ( sister in law) recommended a book and I totally forgot...

Mark got home tonight and thought I was going to zumba class , so he had planned for going on a run with Bubba. Today was a tough day though , a new side of my son came out and lets say Im to exhausted to do anything. Since he had plans I took up the opportunity to leave and hit up the library. I made a list of books and authors and headed out.

The best way to describe Seasides' library is that it is just a little ghetto. Maybe that its not that bad , but they dont have much of a selection and its seems poorly funded compared to the Monterey library . The library left me with dissapointed with having only 1 of the books that was on my list , but I did grab a few from the some other authors that I had written down.

Even though this library isnt grand I do love coming to it. I love librarys in general. It has always been my favorite place to go to and hide. I was always the kid checking out max number of books and the librarian reminding me that there is a late fee because they always thought I would never finish the books. So today while I was there I sat on the floor in one of the aisles going through books and reading the covers. I wish I could have taken so many home , but I only grabbed 5.

When I was young , lets just say I didnt have the greatest of childhoods. Sometimes I feel as though I didnt really have a childhood. I had one at one point but it was taken away early. The only thing I had to really escape to was a closet or my room ( or somewhere they couldnt find me) to read. Reading gave me a perspective on life , on how it should be or how much worse it could have been. I was big into the Boxcar Children mysteries and The Babysitters club. Loved the Boxcar set because it was children abandoned but then were saved by a rich uncle ( at least I think it was an uncle) who took them on trips that always led to a mystery. Then I loved C.S Lewis. Theres no reason to explain is greatness at story telling . I read alot of books , and remember some but I loved them all. I was the girl with the flashlight that attached to the book.

My love for books is still there but it is no longer there for an escape from something terrible , I read when I have the time just because I love to do it . I love to share what Ive read with my husband especially. He always listens thoughfully and gives me feedback.

I hope that my love for books goes on to my children. We try to read to Bubba now , but he is only interested in books that have cars in them. He will search all the books he has and knows at age 1 what has cars. It led us last week to go to borders to find a seletion of books with cars in them so he will be interested in reading something. I would love any suggestions or comments on how to help with making reading to him more interesting.

Now to start with this bag full of books.

Monday, April 20, 2009

I must laugh...


HAHAHA . LOL . LMAO ... anything else along those lines? Over a year since I last posted! Im in shock with so many things 1) That I didnt have much to worry about 2) We had just got back from a wonderful vacation 3) I have a 1 year old that makes me look at this blog as though its not even me 4) Im pregnant. Again.
From one excited pregnancy to the next we are having a girl this time. As I say to everyone " we are very excited and couldnt be happier." Its the truth , but I feel as though I say it to much. Probaly because I do , Im pregnant and when people notice the belly the first thing they ask about is the sex. Then they see Bubba and jump into the same line " HOW PERFECT! One girl and one boy! ". Yes , very perfect . We would have been happy with 2 boys as well.
From being stuck in Japan , to falling in love with it then somewhat being kicked out . Spent 2 months in Houston , 5 1/2 months in Bremerton WA and now here, we are in Marks next duty station in Monterey CA. Mark is attending NPS and Im just... being a mom.
My life revolves around Baby Mark now nearly 13 months old. The year has flown by so fast but then there were times when I felt I was stuck and time would never move on. Things have gotten better once we moved in Monterey. After being in Washington state for 5 months during the winter , anywhere would have been better ( as long as they didnt have snow). Once Mark starting running around , my life feels as though it has been on the constant run. Bubba ( baby Mark) and I moved here before Mark was detached from his ship. We stayed home all the time , with nothing to do. I felt as though Monterey had nothing to offer and though it was warmer then Washington the weather still sucked. Once Mark came down and he was off with school I researched and started some activities for us. First thing was that I wanted to do was workout. I sat around all the time and felt myself slipping away. Thats when I found stroller strides , and now am able to work out everyday with Bubba. Then I found the Monterey Moms Club. A mix of locals and military moms that are stuck at home with the little ones. Lets just say I love it . We dont make it to all the playgroups , only because Id rather workout most days , but when we do make it , its just amazing. Being able to converse with someone other than Bubba or Gidget helps alot. Then seeing Mark interact with other children makes me so happy , only because I know he gets so excited being able to play with everyone.
For now Monterey is great . Super great with this freak weather the past 2 days of it being in the 80s' but Ive been told to not be to happy. This weather is record breaking and it is NEVER like this. The best way to describe the weather here is ... well it looks GORGEOUS outside , but you can never leave without a light jacket. Even though it is looking beautiful it has only been in the 50s, we hit the low 60s and that usually is a hot day.
So many times Mark and I turn to each other wishing we were back in Jacksonville , Fl. We enjoyed the weather , it was perfect for us. We would both rather sweat then freeze.
Lets just say life is good. The pregnancy is going great , Bubba is happy , Mark is happy ( getting to start training again) and Gidget , I dont think she is that happy. Only because she is a princess poodle and a pain in the neck.
Im due July 23 or July 29 , whatever the doctors feels like saying that day. Chloe Simone Hebert, Beautiful huh? I think so . Even though Mark came up with name after seeing it on a person. One day he brought it up and I said it sounded perfect then I asked what made him think of it and he said he saw it on a purse.... I just said " uhhh ok?". lol.
Naptime it is. This is why Im able to post , but I must sleep as well to have energy for later.